I'm not sure who knows or not and quite frankly don't care but way back in 2007 I came out to my family as trans. My immediate family IE my wife and children all took it very well and we stayed together as we were still in love each other and still are very much so today. Unfortunately my mother and her husband and my Dad and his Wife ( Yeah they got divorced when I was about 5 or 6 ) did not and cast me out from the family. Things like finding out that my mothers side Nan and grandad passing and the whole family even cousins were told never to tell me. I looked up to my Dad and tried a few times to reach out but including mentioning that I don't want anything from him other than love and friendship and that I didn't want his money I'd rather be poor and happy. But alas he wanted nothing to do with us. I mean in 2013 when our eldest Cameron passed away just 4 days from his 16th I called my dad absolutely distressed to let him know that his Grandson had passed away to get the instant reply "What do you want me to do about it?". I hung up straight away and couldn't believe what I'd just heard. But to be fair my mother was as bad as both parents didn't even want to know their grandchildren and days before Camerons funeral I got a card addressed to Cameron and on opening it I discovered it was from my Mum who'd never spoken to him sending him his own in memorial card. I was horrified and so never tried to contact any of them again I soon found out family isn't always blood. Anyway enough of my drama but this morning my Wife Julie got a messenger call from my brother who also thinks like my parents telling her to let me know that my Dad has passed away last night. You want to know what's bad ? I really do not know how to feel about this ? Yes when i was a child I looked up to him and he took us everywhere but later in life as I became myself and had a beautiful family he did not want to know me or them. I feel sad and heartless at the same time. What is wrong with me ? Anyway I need to go and bury my head in some code or something as I'm off work this week and maybe take a walk ? Sorry for going on.......