I think fediverse has returned my calm and tranquility. Centralized social media definitely is a source of garbage, advertising, disinterest and violence in all areas, and it's been a long journey to realize for me. I thank especially all the kind people I have met in all this time here, and beige.party for opening me its doors to a diverse, fun and respectful space. I finally see and get the superficiality in centralized social media.. one of the most painful things emotionally besides the disinterest of people, amplified by a perverse algorithm that depressed everyone who stays there. I feel way better, this is priceless.. thank you all.