I can 100% sympathize with them too, I used to be the edgiest anarchist you could be. Like calling military recruiters baby killers type edgy in high school. Lol. I still go out to weird crazy anarchist punk rock shows all the time, it’s actually not the worst place to organize anymore because theres less drunk heroin addict punks, now they’re all parents or young gay kids n shit. I used to parrot all the stuff about communism being evil and Stalin and stuff because, with 0 reading, my understanding of communism was that it was exactly the same as Nazism/fascism. I have learned a lot since but I’m still in no position to argue against American neoliberalism to well meaning liberals and/or anarchists at work cuz I just wanna finish my fuckin shift in this kitchen and fucking go home