iguessimlemming

Only Ween’s 12 Country Greats

David Bowie. I really mourned him, didn’t expect to feel so strongly about someone I never met. Feel like the world got significantly duller and darker since he took off.

Way back when I had a phase of a few months where it was all I would do in my spare time, and was increasingly making spare time to lay in bed and smoke. It just made everything nice, soft and floaty - including living in a crappy flat with a crazy and annoying flatmate (who supplied, and became less annoying after a few hits) and their dog. Luckily they moved out and I had no other source, 'cause I think that could’ve well been the end of my life/progress. I understood the nastiness of the Opium Wars at that point. Morphine I think is a lot stronger? Only tried a tab once from a friend, who later OD’d (RIP). I had to keep getting up to go throw up but everything was fucking perfect. Like a mind-blowingly pleasant physical feeling. Yeah opioids are dangerous, best to avoid.

cit. I take a very “conservative” approach to philosophy. If you are going to introduce some brand new world-shattering “paradigm shift” metaphysics, then I am going to be your biggest skeptic. I will want you to demonstrate that this is a necessity, either a logical or empirical necessity, such that all more trivial ways to conceive of the world have been exhausted. … so much time wasted with this fucking gatekeeping. try acid.

haha damn looks like I’m about to read just that part tonight, what a coincidence. skipping to not get it spoilered. but then again the whole book is just one long rant against the struggle, in the end. glad i finally got through it though - only took ten years